Withdrawals

February 3, 2007 by Dave.

What a hell of a time to be trying to give up soda for two weeks. I’m recently read an article about how simply cutting soda out of your diet will not only help with weight loss, but it will help you think more clearly by virtue of getting the processed sugars out of your system. Although I’ve been such a sugar addict for a while that I’m gonna hit that wall so fucking hard.

I heard back from that girl again. I mentioned the last communication I tried to call her while I was in New Jersey last weekend. Spoke to her for about two minutes while she was on break. She said she was sorry for being so distant, then got a call from her dad and asked to call me back later. She never did, even though I waited. I wrote her in myspace telling her I wanted to talk to her and that I thought we kinda clicked and I got that she was scared and stuff. She sent me back this note that kind of freaked me out. She didn’t want to hurt me and basically told me to run for the hills and I’d be much better off if I forget her. She did say that she wasn’t looking for anyone right now, and that was probably the only thing that didn’t sound like it was out of a heightened sense of fear. I get that she’s got her issues, but wow just the fear I got off that email was something else. I really do wish there was something to say but that’s pretty much impossible.

Yet I still want to talk to her. Part of it is yeah, I wish there was a chance for us, but honestly I’d love to know where all that fear came from. I’ve been in that spot for a long time and it sucks. It’s sort of like that joke about the guy who falls in the hole, and a friend comes by. The friend jumps in the hole with the guy. The guy says “you idiot, now we’re both trapped here,” but his friend says “yeah, but I’ve been in this hole before and I know the way out.” She sounds like she’s scared and in a lot of pain and I hate that, especially when I can’t do a lot about it. Not talking to her for a while does suck.

Hell of a time to be trying to detox from sugar.

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