The week of not trying to talk to this girl ended last night. I called a couple of times and still no response. I never got through to her just to her machine. I’ve been pretty much a wrreck all day today. Thank god it’s my day off because I can’t deal right now. I think I had it in the back of my head that she might actually answer the phone after this week. Guess not.
This happened to me before a couple of years ago. Someone I started dating called me once and then jsut avoided all my calls and emails. Just stopped talking. I got the hint. This timepart of it is that this girl tends to jsut be inaccessable. But I don’t know. Part of me hoped this was someone worth fighting for but that isn’t going to happen.
However like I said the last time or so ago, I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t look for someone knowing I’m not going to get anywhere with anyone anymore. It hurts too much. I have nothing left to give anyway.